These songs are on a two week delay. I started posting them just as I was working on the 3rd assignment so, it's interesting for me to go back and think about what my brain was going through two weeks prior and what brought on the song...besides the prompt itself, of course. The prompt for week 5 was "The Loud Silence".
What's interesting to me is how my brain is responding to having prompts given to me instead of being prompted by my own thoughts and emotions. I have to connect to some memory, some strong feeling present or past and direct myself to get lost in it again. That can be therapeutic. I suppose I could just make thoughts, feelings and people up but, I'd still have to to connect to it in some very personal way so, I do what I do.
"The Loud Silence" to me, is what happens when there is so much left unsaid. And, I'm not one to leave things unsaid. Ask my husband. I talk everything through...to exhaustion. So, I didn't want the song to be about a "cold shoulder" sort of silence at all. I wanted it to be about surrendering and letting things go unsaid, making peace with what is unresolved... saying nothing because you're convinced the meaning would be lost anyway, not wanting to hear anything because you don't want to go backwards...finally, embracing the silence. An idea that I'm sure to contradict with the next song. ;)
Short and sweet. Looking forward to performing with three of the other songwriters in the group tonight in Austin, Tx!. 7pm! Check it HERE.
The Only Sound Now
I don’t have a thing, a single thing to say
Nothing that could bring comfort or a change
Defend my honor, justify
Prove you wrong, prove me right
I don’t want to waste the strength to be so proud
So, let the loud silence be the only sound now
In every song I heard, some weren’t even yours
But, who am I to hold you to every single word
or take them for a dollar, for my healing
or for the truth without true meaning
I give them back if that’s the only choice allowed
and let the loud silence be the only sound now
If time can’t do a thing to wear you down
Then let the loud silence be the only sound now
let the loud silence be the only sound now